i believe i'm going through an identity crisis. not a major one, like the construction of said identity using such constructs as nurture, expecations, media, consumerism, and previous promises. rather, a blogging identity crisis.

at times i rather like the random-ness of the blog, how it moves from family to indie crafting to theology. other times, i miss digging into an issue or wrestling with a concept. i don't know how much i really want to blog about my family and yet that's the place were i live my theology the most right now - my truly localized community. i censor myself needlessly at times because of the places and spaces my heart yearns for - wanting to craft comunitas in certain contexts - but do not want to dream at the expense of my current situation. and i'm working, working, working on so many personal and professional projects that blogging seems like a luxury i cannot afford.

i'm not ready to give up the blog. i'm not desiring that. and i think deciding on a direction or creating a schedule for my posts is premature. so i'll keep throwing up links, posting random stories, and reflecting when space allots. hopefully, in doing so, i'll push more into these dreams of god that continue to captivate me.